Wednesday, March 26, 2008
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
the coast
yesterday held much excitement for our group of traveling friends. the entire day was almost dreamlike. we left the hustle and bustle of the portland streets and made our way to the dense woods. as we were driving through the mountains, shafts of light fell through the tall evergreen trees, which my eyes have missed dearly. we would drive and see some rain, then sun, then repeat.
when we got to where we would be staying there was a sense of excitement amongst the group as we all grew anxious to see the coast. for some of us (me) it would be there first time. we began to hike to the coast and as we came to the dunes jerad, evan, phil, and i could no longer contain ourselves. we ran up and down the dunes hooping and hollering as if we had just been set free after years of imprisonment. when we crested the last dune and our eyes saw the coast we all grew silent for a moment. we took in the immensity of the roaring ocean. then we continued with our childlike excitement.
that moment was wonderful though. that moment when we were feeding off of each other's excitement. the moment when the roaring monster took our breaths away. a moment i will propbably remember for the rest of my life.
thank You for:
a loving family
beautiful/caring friends
a place to rest my head
when we got to where we would be staying there was a sense of excitement amongst the group as we all grew anxious to see the coast. for some of us (me) it would be there first time. we began to hike to the coast and as we came to the dunes jerad, evan, phil, and i could no longer contain ourselves. we ran up and down the dunes hooping and hollering as if we had just been set free after years of imprisonment. when we crested the last dune and our eyes saw the coast we all grew silent for a moment. we took in the immensity of the roaring ocean. then we continued with our childlike excitement.
that moment was wonderful though. that moment when we were feeding off of each other's excitement. the moment when the roaring monster took our breaths away. a moment i will propbably remember for the rest of my life.
thank You for:
a loving family
beautiful/caring friends
a place to rest my head
Sunday, March 16, 2008
warm welcome
it is the second night of spring break. we just got back from the city tonight. i am incredibly content.
yesterday we got here safely and for this i am thankful. we didn't know where we were going to stay when we got here. jerad called up an ex-girlfriend and her parents decided to take in 6 strangers. this family has been truly wonderful. they gave us a some matresses and some warm quilts to sleep with. i am thankful for this, because the basement is really cold. i got to talking with the father of the household and found out that the house used to belong to a cultish church, and he has spent the last 10 years remodeling the old church into a home. the family then made us a huge breakfast this morning before we left for church. i am thankful and encouraged by this family. it is nice to know that there are still people out there willing to take in six strangers and show us Christ's love all the while.
more forgiveness. please.
thank You.
yesterday we got here safely and for this i am thankful. we didn't know where we were going to stay when we got here. jerad called up an ex-girlfriend and her parents decided to take in 6 strangers. this family has been truly wonderful. they gave us a some matresses and some warm quilts to sleep with. i am thankful for this, because the basement is really cold. i got to talking with the father of the household and found out that the house used to belong to a cultish church, and he has spent the last 10 years remodeling the old church into a home. the family then made us a huge breakfast this morning before we left for church. i am thankful and encouraged by this family. it is nice to know that there are still people out there willing to take in six strangers and show us Christ's love all the while.
more forgiveness. please.
thank You.
Thursday, March 13, 2008
it aint me
"Go melt back into the night, babe,
Everything inside is made of stone.
There's nothing in here moving
An' anyway I'm not alone.
You say you're looking for someone
Who'll pick you up each time you fall,
To gather flowers constantly
An' to come each time you call,
A lover for your life an' nothing more,
But it ain't me, babe,
No, no, no, it ain't me, babe,
It ain't me you're lookin' for, babe."
-bob dylan-
many people may find this song to be incredibly harsh and cruel...i don't know maybe it is, but i can't help but agree with mr. dylan to an extent. i will never be able to provide complete hapiness in any young lady's heart. true hapiness can only be found in One that is greater than me. anything that i do that is good only comes from the One i serve. He is the source of all that is good and pure and blameless. so one day i hope to have a wife and children, but i can not promise either of them utter happiness; i can try, but i can't promise, because i can't give true peace or happiness, but i can point them in the right direction.
more patience. please.
Everything inside is made of stone.
There's nothing in here moving
An' anyway I'm not alone.
You say you're looking for someone
Who'll pick you up each time you fall,
To gather flowers constantly
An' to come each time you call,
A lover for your life an' nothing more,
But it ain't me, babe,
No, no, no, it ain't me, babe,
It ain't me you're lookin' for, babe."
-bob dylan-
many people may find this song to be incredibly harsh and cruel...i don't know maybe it is, but i can't help but agree with mr. dylan to an extent. i will never be able to provide complete hapiness in any young lady's heart. true hapiness can only be found in One that is greater than me. anything that i do that is good only comes from the One i serve. He is the source of all that is good and pure and blameless. so one day i hope to have a wife and children, but i can not promise either of them utter happiness; i can try, but i can't promise, because i can't give true peace or happiness, but i can point them in the right direction.
more patience. please.
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
officers, jams, and gusty winds
last night i had the chance to make it over to the senior boys house for a little jam session. it was nice for us all to get together again. as pertaining to my last post, i think we all had been caught up in different things, and have not really had the chance to be together and play music in a really long time.
i rode my bike over there at 11:30. as i am pulling up to the house i see a police cruiser outside. one cop got out and started walking towards the house, so i slowed down, because i did not have a light on my bike and i have already been pulled over once for this. so i snuck around the side of the house and as i approached the front door i noticed that there was two other police officers inside already. i was fianally directly behind them but they did not notice me. everyone was laughing inside, so i just let out a fake laugh so they would know i was there. then i walked by them and sat down on a couch. it was a strange feeling. they were all joking with us and making fun of evan for looking like wayne from wayne's world. i got there just a bit late, so i missed the part where the guys were able to play "the times are a changing" by bob dylan for the officers. they were kind and told us to turn down the amp and not play the drums. they were also just kind, i have not had a pleasant run in with an officer in a long time, so it was ensuring.
about a half hour later we stopped playing music and everyone started leaving. alex, andrew, matt, andrea, becca, and i were all just lounging around listenign to "the temptation of adam" by josh ritter. i noticed that matt was rifling through an american literature book. as the song came to the end he read us an excerpt from a poem by t.s. elliot. he explained that life is now. life are the moments we have right now with our friends. we need to hang on to those moments. life does not exist in the uncertain future. life exists in the love we have for others whether it be for a lover, a friend, a mother, or someone that does not share the love we have for them.
as i rode home in the harsh spring winds i felt light.
may He continue to teach us what unfailing love looks like.
i rode my bike over there at 11:30. as i am pulling up to the house i see a police cruiser outside. one cop got out and started walking towards the house, so i slowed down, because i did not have a light on my bike and i have already been pulled over once for this. so i snuck around the side of the house and as i approached the front door i noticed that there was two other police officers inside already. i was fianally directly behind them but they did not notice me. everyone was laughing inside, so i just let out a fake laugh so they would know i was there. then i walked by them and sat down on a couch. it was a strange feeling. they were all joking with us and making fun of evan for looking like wayne from wayne's world. i got there just a bit late, so i missed the part where the guys were able to play "the times are a changing" by bob dylan for the officers. they were kind and told us to turn down the amp and not play the drums. they were also just kind, i have not had a pleasant run in with an officer in a long time, so it was ensuring.
about a half hour later we stopped playing music and everyone started leaving. alex, andrew, matt, andrea, becca, and i were all just lounging around listenign to "the temptation of adam" by josh ritter. i noticed that matt was rifling through an american literature book. as the song came to the end he read us an excerpt from a poem by t.s. elliot. he explained that life is now. life are the moments we have right now with our friends. we need to hang on to those moments. life does not exist in the uncertain future. life exists in the love we have for others whether it be for a lover, a friend, a mother, or someone that does not share the love we have for them.
as i rode home in the harsh spring winds i felt light.
may He continue to teach us what unfailing love looks like.
Monday, March 10, 2008
nevermind our planmaking. lets start living.
i was told today to blog again. so here is something that has been on my heart.
maybe it is a prayer.
lately i have been way to caught up in myself. i have been tangled up in girl interests and other relations to the point that i have neglected a really important relationship with G-d. saturday evening after i hung out with a group of beautiful friends reed, kristy, kylee, and chris. afterwards i decided to take a walk. i had a lot on my mind. it seemed that all i have been working on the last few weeks toward relationships, and other future plans were not going as i had planned.
i was reminded how foolish it is of me to focus on my plans. my plans will never get me anywhere, just like my beliefs. so may i forget my plans and start living. may i abandon my beliefs and embrace a G-d of peace.
i am thankful for:
the many relationships He has blessed me with.
a loving family that i am able to communicate with even though there is a lot of land between us.
forgiveness
hope
mercy
grace
peace
may i continue to learn Your love. please.
nate
maybe it is a prayer.
lately i have been way to caught up in myself. i have been tangled up in girl interests and other relations to the point that i have neglected a really important relationship with G-d. saturday evening after i hung out with a group of beautiful friends reed, kristy, kylee, and chris. afterwards i decided to take a walk. i had a lot on my mind. it seemed that all i have been working on the last few weeks toward relationships, and other future plans were not going as i had planned.
i was reminded how foolish it is of me to focus on my plans. my plans will never get me anywhere, just like my beliefs. so may i forget my plans and start living. may i abandon my beliefs and embrace a G-d of peace.
i am thankful for:
the many relationships He has blessed me with.
a loving family that i am able to communicate with even though there is a lot of land between us.
forgiveness
hope
mercy
grace
peace
may i continue to learn Your love. please.
nate
Friday, March 7, 2008
its a beautiful day
it is dinner time and my day has been extrordinary thus far. the day started out beautiful and sunny with a hint of wind. now it is dark and gloomy, but i feel wonderful. when i got out of class today i got up to my room to find a present from a kind friend, molly orias. she left me a brownie and a little note about our friendship. this was incredibly friendly and put me in a wonderful mood. i then hopped on youtube to watch the entire heima documentary that sigur ros produced. all day today they are going to stream this wonderful piece of art, so check it out if you have an hour and a half to spare.
that documentary put me in a wonderful mood. it was wonderful to see amazing artists travel back to their tiny beautiful homeland in iceland to try and seek solitude after touring the very large and busy world. the images and recordings were superb and left me with a grin on my face that i doubt i will be able to wipe off for the next couple of hours.
lets turn off our computers and go for a walk.
peace
that documentary put me in a wonderful mood. it was wonderful to see amazing artists travel back to their tiny beautiful homeland in iceland to try and seek solitude after touring the very large and busy world. the images and recordings were superb and left me with a grin on my face that i doubt i will be able to wipe off for the next couple of hours.
lets turn off our computers and go for a walk.
peace
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