officers, jams, and gusty winds

last night i had the chance to make it over to the senior boys house for a little jam session. it was nice for us all to get together again. as pertaining to my last post, i think we all had been caught up in different things, and have not really had the chance to be together and play music in a really long time.

i rode my bike over there at 11:30. as i am pulling up to the house i see a police cruiser outside. one cop got out and started walking towards the house, so i slowed down, because i did not have a light on my bike and i have already been pulled over once for this. so i snuck around the side of the house and as i approached the front door i noticed that there was two other police officers inside already. i was fianally directly behind them but they did not notice me. everyone was laughing inside, so i just let out a fake laugh so they would know i was there. then i walked by them and sat down on a couch. it was a strange feeling. they were all joking with us and making fun of evan for looking like wayne from wayne's world. i got there just a bit late, so i missed the part where the guys were able to play "the times are a changing" by bob dylan for the officers. they were kind and told us to turn down the amp and not play the drums. they were also just kind, i have not had a pleasant run in with an officer in a long time, so it was ensuring.

about a half hour later we stopped playing music and everyone started leaving. alex, andrew, matt, andrea, becca, and i were all just lounging around listenign to "the temptation of adam" by josh ritter. i noticed that matt was rifling through an american literature book. as the song came to the end he read us an excerpt from a poem by t.s. elliot. he explained that life is now. life are the moments we have right now with our friends. we need to hang on to those moments. life does not exist in the uncertain future. life exists in the love we have for others whether it be for a lover, a friend, a mother, or someone that does not share the love we have for them.

as i rode home in the harsh spring winds i felt light.

may He continue to teach us what unfailing love looks like.

nevermind our planmaking. lets start living.

i was told today to blog again. so here is something that has been on my heart.
maybe it is a prayer.

lately i have been way to caught up in myself. i have been tangled up in girl interests and other relations to the point that i have neglected a really important relationship with G-d. saturday evening after i hung out with a group of beautiful friends reed, kristy, kylee, and chris. afterwards i decided to take a walk. i had a lot on my mind. it seemed that all i have been working on the last few weeks toward relationships, and other future plans were not going as i had planned.

i was reminded how foolish it is of me to focus on my plans. my plans will never get me anywhere, just like my beliefs. so may i forget my plans and start living. may i abandon my beliefs and embrace a G-d of peace.

i am thankful for:
the many relationships He has blessed me with.
a loving family that i am able to communicate with even though there is a lot of land between us.
forgiveness
hope
mercy
grace
peace

may i continue to learn Your love. please.

nate

its a beautiful day

it is dinner time and my day has been extrordinary thus far. the day started out beautiful and sunny with a hint of wind. now it is dark and gloomy, but i feel wonderful. when i got out of class today i got up to my room to find a present from a kind friend, molly orias. she left me a brownie and a little note about our friendship. this was incredibly friendly and put me in a wonderful mood. i then hopped on youtube to watch the entire heima documentary that sigur ros produced. all day today they are going to stream this wonderful piece of art, so check it out if you have an hour and a half to spare.

that documentary put me in a wonderful mood. it was wonderful to see amazing artists travel back to their tiny beautiful homeland in iceland to try and seek solitude after touring the very large and busy world. the images and recordings were superb and left me with a grin on my face that i doubt i will be able to wipe off for the next couple of hours.

lets turn off our computers and go for a walk.
peace

shivering cosmos

i am discovering that modest mouse has strong roots in the moon and antarctica

Berny

so for those of you who know me, i have a little friend growing on my right cheek slightly under my eye. for a while i thought it was a boil, but i went to the doctor tonight and found out that it is a "seditious sist." so i have to make an apointment with a dermatologist tommorow to get it removed. hopefully by the end of the week. we'll see. so bye bye berny, you have worn out your welcome.

thanks kylee

tonight was truly a great evening. i was able to enjoy the company of kylee pearson for a night on the town. ms. pearson took me to some really neat places, some that i have overlooked, others that i didn't know existed. to start the evening off we went to this really petite coffee house, called veritas, in garden city and watched a few of her friends play some rather enjoyable music. there were some neat daniel johnston and wilco jams being played as well. and one of the performers daughters did one of the neatest dances i have seen in a while. i honestly watched her most of the show. i was secretly hoping that no one would catch me staring at her thinking i was a pedaphile. i just wanted to be able to dance like her, no worries, just dancing. if i ever perform live, i will dance a whole song imitating that little girl as best i can.

then we went to downtown and went for a small bite to eat at the red feather. this place is like a club from a movie. it was dimly lit, and had really neat lights. the vibe in the place was pretty interesting. i felt like i needed to be 21 to eat there, but i didn't...i don't think.

then to another small coffee shop that i didn't know about, but had this really delicious tea

so thank you kylee for a wonderful evening. and for being honest.

lower. lower.

today i went with a few friends to see a few refugees i met in the fall. these people were from burma, and for some reason that i can't figure out due to language barrier, were displaced in the united states. they do not desire to go home at all, they enjoy the united states, this was most notable by a photograph of two of them next to a cardboard cutout of president bush. i have been back to see them two other times before today, and jenna suggested that we go this weekend. this was a true blessing, because we foud out today that they are moving to florida on monday.

it is tough for me to say goodbye to this very mysterious family. though i only met with them four times, and knew very little about them, due to the language barrier, they still taught me a lot. they taught me hospitality, what it is to be thankful, and that the most important thing in life is being with those we love.

everytime i go there i am reminded of the overabundance of wealth i have. and everytime i leave i forget.

this is my prayer
forgive my selfishness
forgive my ignorance
may i not become fused to the "treasures" of this earth.
may i live to love
make me low!
alleluia